Hello. I see you out there, and I appreciate your essence in the ethers as I have been hovering behind the scenes on this blog this past winter. Many more posts are coming with changes to their appearance on this site and the site itself.
I appreciate every single one of you readers out there, your time and energy, your thumbs up, and your contribution of attention supporting this blog. And in that vein I intend to be more transparent...honest - truthful in my own integrity - if you will, regarding the content of posts on this website.
The domain name change will be to karenpearson.org and will be effective as soon as I finish this post, drink my 2nd cup of tea, and make the appropriate keystrokes to facilitate the connection.
Why didn't you just name your blog by your name to begin with? Fear. Yeah, shocking. I know. If you detected a note of sarcasm...good on you. In the wake of years of destruction, hate, judgment - so much judgment - blaming, complaining, comparing, abuse both physical and mental, violence, anger - so much anger, wrath, rage,
that I have caused - I feared the same in retaliation. What if those I have injured, abused, and harmed find me? They already have Karen.
I have lived with all of those lessons - learning them inside and out - from a wee child still in diapers so well, that their daily dispensation and my repeating of those behaviors became ingrained and so much a part of this human form that I was oblivious to the level of expert I had reached in acting out that toxicity in kind.
It was only until several decades ago that I presented myself (I say presented myself instead of "happened to me" because I choose everything that comes into my life and every thing/one is welcome here. Also, I cannot change that which I do not own.) with that completely different life - a pivotal moment that gave me the opportunity to choose - to devote my life to me by taking full responsibility for every single moment, choice, experience, feeling, perspective, and always doing unto others as I would have done unto me.
Do not engage. Do no harm. Do no thing.
I look back on my life with such respect for its candor and willingness to support me in spite of myself. Time and again the repeated lessons so fearfully ignored, came knocking, "Hello," they would say, "you have a choice, you know."
"Oh," I would think. True - I am one decision away from a completely different life.
Lying is one type of harm - always to the self first and a minimum of four times before that lie sends its tentacles out into the ethers to "bless" the environment. Really Karen? A lie is the best you have to offer yourself and others? A lie is the environment in which YOU CHOOSE to live? Ain't no one standin' in line for that blessing. No one.
Hence the domain name change. I gave myself the name Karen Pearson in contract before I ever came down to this earthly realm. My responsibility is to own and fulfill that contract. There is more to the contract, and those obligations continue to be my only and daily priority.
More to come.
Stay tuned.
The dishes are calling and so is the tea.
You are the love you seek.
Namaste,
Karen Pearson
